In Denial About My Struggles.

I wear my heart on my sleeve as people would say. Words can’t describe the current season that I am in but, I will try to share it with you the best as I can in this blog post.

Since the beginning of 2016 I’ve been on this constant emotional roller coaster. Many times I felt like I was going to explode and surprisingly I haven’t, mainly because I’ve kept some of God’s word in my heart. Anxiety, living in fear, feeling useless and so many other negative emotions, never in a million years I thought I will ever be in this position. I always viewed myself as someone who is fearless, an overcomer, wise and someone who loves to live in peace. I couldn’t understand and I questioned God where are these gloomy feelings coming from? 

For a while now I was in denial about my feelings which lead to be a struggle. Being in denial about what I was going through had created a bigger hole in my life even with my relationship with God. It also formed other sins that are new to me, such as jealousy and comparing myself to others; Not only that but I became depressed and bitter too. I even had an excuse and blamed my monthly menstrual cycle for the way I was. Did you know being in denial about your struggles can blind you spiritually?  I felt stuck and wondered how come. Even when I tried to face the problem I couldn’t overcome my situation because I then realized I was depending on my own strength and not on God’s. Here is a side note: “You must face the truth in order to live in truth”. 

A friend of mine advised me to learn to give myself room to be sad and be negative because we can’t always be positive and so I did just that. I didn’t agree with that statement but I didn’t have any other solution at the time. Looking at my life now I don’t ever want to make room for my negativity or sadness again. Why would I create a room for the devil to dwell in? That’s how I personally feel. I do believe we can always be positive and yet still be aware of the reality that life isn’t fair and the enemy will attack you with all these negative emotions from time to time.  

Another statement I don’t agree with is when people generally say “God wouldn’t give you what you couldn’t bear”. People tend to misinterpret what 1 Corinthians 10:13 is really trying to saying “The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure”.  There is a difference in being tempted and struggling.    

In Matthew 11:28-30  says “Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

I’ve reached my breaking point of this depressing season. I don’t want to battle with these feelings again or make room for it. I  wanted to make room for the good things that was promised to me at the cross. I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT BEAR THESE STRUGGLES ANYMORE. I give it to you Lord. That scripture you just read Matthew 11:28-30 is saying whatever burdens that you have and can no longer carry give it to Yahweh (Jesus) and he will give you peace and rest.

Yes! You are strong and God can and will give you strength; but why do you feel the need to carry so much baggage? God sent his only Son on this earth for that reason, to be the one to carry our burdens, deliver us from our struggles including teaching us how to live Holy and reminding us of his unconditional love. 

I want to encourage you readers whatever struggles you are dealing with first be honest with yourself and tell God, seek guidance from a righteous person, a spiritual leader who will honestly pray with and for you.  Like that one popular gospel song “I’m trading my sorrows, I’m trading my shame, I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord”. 




Author: Minette Norgaisse

Hello my lovely readers, I guess I should do a quick bio about me. Well, for one I am not your average woman I make living Holy look fun. Yes! I am a believer but, I AM NOT PERFECT nor do I pretend to be. I love my city Kissimmee, Florida was raised here all my life I rep it like I do with my nationality, Haitian-American. Don't like long walks on the beach because Florida is too hot and the birds here are mean, but, I enjoy watching the sunrise on my rooftop. My two favorite things that God created are the Moon and Stars, notice I didn't say humans? I am totally kidding, my love for people is deeper than my dimples. I have many passions one of them is doing missionary work, I enjoy the company of people from different cultures; I also admire photographing nature places I've traveled too and priceless moments. On July 28, 1992 was the best day that ever happens to my mother that is why she named me after her, Myriam Norgaisse. Thanks mother now I have to live the rest of my life getting our mail mixed up. Well, that was somewhat of a short bio. Enjoy my blog & more. Also, don't forget to subscribe to my YouTube channel at Keep Up With The Golden Life STAY GOLDEN!!!

6 thoughts

  1. Wow that’s deep! So much I want to write but I’ll keep it short. Having dealt with that kind of void or feelings of uselessness my myself at one point in my life, I can relate. At least you’re writing about it or (vent) if you will. I typically wouldn’t share feelings, hid the pain with a smile but inside felt like a ticking time bomb that was getting ready to explode at any moment lol.

    But I thank God for the strength and the positivity he’d bestowed in me regardless of what I was going through and guided me to (believe it or not not) what turned out to be some sort of therapy if you will THE GYM!! Lol.

    To be honest I’m not sure if THE GYM was the reason why that void was filled, it could’ve been anything else I suppose. But I guess the discipline behind it and/or the willingness to continuously focus on improving regardless of how I was feeling that day or that moment was what got me out of that sense of uselessness.

    Everything around me literally shifted from that point on. All glory to God.

    But thanks sharing. Those feelings comes and go unfortunately, it is how you deal with them when they come that matters. Put God first, keep your head up & stay positive.

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  2. This was awesome to read during the perfect season. I like how you made a point that we don’t have to carry our struggles even though he made us strong enough to deal with them. Giving them to him is half the battle.. Realizing we don’t have to carry the struggles is the other half. Thanks for sharing your down season. I tend to only share when I’m doing well. But sharing during the not so good seasons sheds light on gods presence in the good and bad ! Thank you! Xoxo

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  3. Amazing post GoldenMinette! Thank you for your transparency and honesty as it can help others! We overcome by the blood of the lamb and by the words of our testimony! Praying for you in this season because that is just what it is, a season! Place your hope in the Lord and you will see the works of His mighty hand in your life. God Bless you Sister.

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